Tomorrow is September 1st. That means going to work and getting ready for another school year. It's always hard going back. I'm a Junior HS Counselor, by the way.
I'm not complaining. I really like my job. I'm good at it and I love those little rugrats (7th and 8th graders). 23 years is a long time to do anything, however. I never pursued becoming a school administrator (which is what most folks in schools do if they're ambitious) because that would have meant giving up music. Clearly that was never a choice.
This is me at work.
Going back this year is different. It's like an odd mix of excitement that this may be my last year working my "day job" mixed with a let-down kind of feeling that I may have to continue in this job for several more years, since as we all know, not many people release an independent cd and start raking in the cash and quitting their day job!
But here's the thing. David and I have recorded 5 songs so far. And they're good. Really good. Like hear-it-on-the-radio good. I think both of us have been surprised by how easily we work together. He tells me I'm a pro in the studio and a great writer. Coming from him, that's beyond exciting to hear. He is teaching me so much about vocals, recording, and his songwriting process.
Of the 5 songs we have so far, 3 of them are songs he and I have written together (brand new), one is mine, and one is his. And for David Chance to "give" me a song for my project is a big deal. That says to me a) he trusts me to do it justice, and b) (I hope this one's true) he thinks this record is going to do well.
So, you can see my dilemma: Do I hang out with the realist part of me and not "count my chickens", or do I keep the positive energy flowing and keep on dreaming big? Of course the answer is yes. I know that, but it's still unsettling.
Anyway, in the meantime, I keep listening to the songs, and I get so pumped every time. I play them for friends every now and then, and the reaction is always the same: Wow, Meg. This is good! Really good!!
I'm heading back to Baltimore at the end of the month, and it is so hard waiting. I love making music. Really I should say that I love when music channels through me. Because the older I get, the more I know that when creativity happens - new ideas, melodies, riffs, lyrics, etc. - it happens when I stay open, get out of the way and let it happen.